What am I doing here?

A daily practice of remembrance.

As I tend to this space now, I am always being asked what it is that I'm doing. Creation asking me to focus my energy. Manifestation is quite a buzzword these days, yet it touches upon a pearl of ancient wisdom that has been held for a long time within the beings of the earth. The stones and trees that tell us, move slowly, rest, all is coming through within the protective hands of time. Move too fast and we might miss it. Spider Kin teaches us the ways in which we are the weavers of our own webs. We are the creators of all we’ve ever desired. Are you ready to take on the responsibility of remembering that life is not happening to you, but that you are an active weaver of your realities. Everything that you hold in your life right now, you brought forth. Everything that has happened to you, you called in. This truth can be a difficult pill to swallow for some. This is why I asked, are you ready to take back the  r e s p o n s i b i l i t y  that comes with that remembrance. These threads we weave that make up our lived experiences are our choices, our thoughts, our words, our actions. And so here we may ask ourselves, are our threads true to what we say we desire?

This wisdom is as old as time. Etched into the bones of creation. How do you sit with these teachings? Do you try to swiftly grasp them into your hands, taking them for your own, desperately wanting to get to the finish line? Well, my love, you may find yourself then pulled back down to the earth, to be unravelled and asked to try again. The strong grip of life reminds you that there is no fast-tracking healing and progress. That there is no biohacking our communion with life and the land. Don’t forget. There is no finish line. Life, manifestation, creation, is a continuously unfolding spiral. It is not a point to be reached because, well, we are already within that point. Everything we are moving towards is already here. Quietly growing within the dark soils of our soul. Do you choose to reach outside of yourself, to find some semblance of something you feel you desire, or have lost? Or do you sit within a present moment with yourself, and see what lives inside? Do you feel that all you need already resides within? In every moment, you are asked to find your truth. You are asked to open into its possibilities. Only in each moment do you find what you are looking for. When you sit with this moment of awareness, suddenly you see with an expanded perspective everything you’ve been missing through constantly moving with your head down.

Sit. Be. Notice what fills the empty spaces of stillness.

Within this spiralling evolution of time and space, one may forget that everything you need, you already have. It sits upon the throne of your heart. Although we are not taught this. We are taught that everything you desire in life must be taken, must be made with blood sweat and tears. Must be fought for. There is this strange image of life as though it is a warlord only giving nourishment when it is ripped from his hands. This way of seeing life only perpetuates its inevitable unfolding. Yet it is not the only way. This other way lives within the ancient forests of our souls. A glimpse into what once was, and still is if we choose. A way of life that is seeped in ease, love, and abundance. That unfolds with compassion and generosity. It is seeing life as though it is a generous mother, who opens her arms to all her children with love, and gives unto them anything they desire freely and abundantly. This way reframes our image of life from a fight for survival to one steeped in enoughness. There is enough for everyone to be so abundantly taken care of that there would be no need for war, violence, or theft. This reality does exist already, if we chose to claim it. Your desires may come to you then with an air of grace and ease. For in this way, we allow life to give to us. We reach out for a hand that offers us abundance. We move in alignment with all that wishes to move through us. We are co-creators. All that you need then lives within you. It moves from the centre of your belly. It is a flutter within, that whispers to you, you are it.

Everything you are in this moment is a process that has been unfolding for years, for generations. When we live within the surface of life, we think that time is linear. When we expand out of that, we may dance with the idea that time moves in all directions, in all moments she exists. And all that you are now, reaches back into events that have played out as far back as you can think. And farther. They served to shape you into who you have become now. And so, all that you are becoming is already here. It exists within the molecules of your vessel. The blueprints of your existence, imprinted within the clouds of your mind. It is the teachings of the natural world that reveal to us, our thoughts are the weavers of our reality. Through them, we see life from a lens of our own lived experiences, and the stories that tie them together. It is these stories that continue to echo throughout all our lives. The stories that we keep ourselves in are the foundations from which we continue to weave our lives. We may look upon these stories and see in what ways we have been keeping ourselves in a loop of sameness. Or how we’ve expanded far beyond anything we used to be. These stories are what make us up, rise us higher, or crash us down. Do the stories you hold about yourself nourish you, or diminish?

When we see our life as a goal to be reached, that we are always desperately striving for, we are lost. For we no longer are embodied within our centred present moment. Instead, we are floating in between what is and what will be. When we are not satisfied until we get what our mind perceives as “the thing”, a very rigid idea with no room for variation, we are limited to the liminal spaces of our rationality. And no longer feel that peace that may live within this moment of presence.

Yet, when we come back to sit upon the seat of the soul. When we take our place fully present within this unfolding spiral that is revealing to us all that is, right now, we suddenly are brought back to life. We are blessed. We are grateful. For we see all that we have. We see all the ways that life so seamlessly guides and protects us on our path. We are reminded that we are not alone, but a part of a great dance of creation. That feeds all of life. When we take our place with our relations we may move knowing that we are held within the embrace of the earth and our kin. Just like that, we are no longer looking from the outside in, but join the circle of creation. We are a part of something. Something bigger than ourselves, yet are a vital and inseparable part of.

As we move, each step is clear. Each moment asks us to commune with our hearts. What is being asked of me in this moment? Following the thread that weaves the tapestry of our lives. As we follow along, the next step is revealed and then the next, and although there is unknown there is also a deep sense of safety and trust. When we look too far ahead of ourselves, the way is cloaked in the fogs of mystery. We cannot know it all. It is a humbling lesson to remember that we are continuously moving within the lands of the unknown. Yet our choice for directing this energy is up to us. Do we follow this thread? This present moment may remain fully embodied, fully felt, fully Lived

For although life may be shrouded in an air of chaos and mystery, it is a living entity. An intelligence that has woven together all of creation, in all of its complexities. Expressing itself through the intricate processes of the birth of a baby or a breath of life. We are not lost, floating in the dark abyss of space. We are here. In this moment. A living being upon the earth. Guided by the knowing that brought us here. Nothing is by accident. Beyond the limited perspective of our daily consciousness, time is weaving all that is, was, and will be. And we are held within that in-between space of presence. At one point upon the spectrum of existence. Suspected within a moment. Aware. Still. Focused.

And then it unravels again, revealing the true grandness of all that is.

Where am I going with all of this existential talk? Well, this is an invitation, to come back into this point that we are all submerged in. The point from which all that we create moves from. How do we live a life embodied within the present moment? It’s not as easy as a click of a button or a whisper of a word. It's a daily cultivation of presence. Expanding out of the limited rationalities of the brain and sinking deeper into the heart. What lives there, is beyond the focus of time. It is eternal. There we find our truth. There we find all that we are searching for. And we may move from a space that is fully present within each moment. Knowing that you already have all that you desire. It lives within you. Do you feel it?

Manifestation is the work of collecting all those particles of energy that already live within you. All those visions and sights from your heart, and alchemize them into physical form. Bringing it into the dimension from the felt, into the seen. It is magical work. When we begin the journey of consciously weaving our lives, we are faced with the unexplainable. It is from this point that you are asked, do you choose to continue, honouring the fact that some things cannot be explained, that some things are moving through forces beyond yourself, or do you wish to stop h

ere, turn back, and continue to be blind-folded, a passive participant in the unfolding of your life? The choice is yours. Either way, the spiral turns.

Always in Love.